3:34 in the morning thoughts in 10 whopping minutes

1. Will I wake my dorm room neighbors if I make a hot pocket?

2. I never realized how dark it is at this time.

3. I really can’t sleep.

4. Are my eyes bloodshot? *Goes and looks in mirror*

5. Screw it! I’m making this hot pocket.

6. But… I will do it in the community lounge’s microwave.

7. Can I take my blanket out there?

8. Nah. I’ll look like a weirdo.

9. What is a weirdo?

10. What is normal?

11. What is life?

12. What is my purpose here? *Looks at Bible and thinks about reading it, but sets it back down, because no one wants to think at this time in the a.m.*

13. Does it always get colder at night/early morning?

14. Tee hee. That’s a silly question. It is freezing rain outside.

15. Can I go to sleep yet?

16. I’m going to message my friend.

17. K bye.

18. Wait… I hope he answers.

19. If not, then, well I will come back and edit this post adding more.

20. Is video chatting an option?

21. Do I dare ask?!

22. Need advice guys. Comment?

23. Who is going to comment this late at night?

24. Is he going to answer this early? (See how I corrected myself. It is a.m., not late at night?)

25. Sleep is nice.

26. Brain, “Too bad. So sad. Sucks to suck. You want to sleep? Good joke!”



Bucket List

This is my bucket list with the first 27 things that came to mind. Some may take more than a year, lasting my whole life, and some may take a day, but anyway I will update it every once in awhile, adding things or checking ’em off!

1. Get my book published.

2. Keep a diary for a whole year.

3. Become closer to God.

4. Enter a poetry contest.

5. Make a scrapbook.

6. Volunteer. (More than I already do!)

7.  Marry the right one the first time.

8.  Become a foster-parent.

9. Adopt a foster-child.

10. Become a social worker.

11. Be happy.

12. Be the best I can be.

13. Kiss my man in the rain.

14. Dance with my man in the rain.

15. Believe I’m beautiful.

16. Graduate High School.

17. Be patient.

18. Go to state speech.

19. Go a week without procrastinating.

20. Have fun at prom this year.

21. Take more pictures. (Not just selfies! Nature people!)

22. Clean out my inbox on my email! 0_o

23. Write to write.

24. Do more chores to help.

25. Forgive and forget.

26. Lose weight for summer.

27. Master crocheting.

Song of Myself

Song of Myself 
Genivyve Smith
21 January 2013

I am to write
and read
and compile to the standards of this world
I shall not,
for if you talk about me behind by back
it means I’m in front of you
If  you hate me for hating you
don’t judge me for saying so
and as for the summary of this
“Judge me all you want just keep the verdict to yourself.”

Individuals, individual.
If we are all trying to be creative
all of us trying to be unique
are we then becoming one of the same
same ideas?
Be yourself
not anyone else
but don’t try too hard.
Life has no meaning.
Life has no purpose;
it is only there to live.
But I believe…?
This means there is a purpose?
I’m not God; I’m not sure.
Life is not copy wrote.
Life is not trade marked.
Enjoy it with every desire.
Life is not bought,
nor is happiness.
Infatuation can sure be bought though.
That’s why we have snotty brats.
That’s why there’s even a term for instant gratification.
This is my song.
Go sing your own.

The List…

Top ten things I look for in a man:

1) Love

2) Good open communication

3) Trust

4) Supportive

5) Respectful to themselves, everyone, and to me.

6) Intelligence

7) Honesty

8) We “centered” not “me” centered

9) Not into a lot of PDA (PUBLIC display of affection)

10) Religion but not too strict about it.


11) Mechanical (Cars and Electronics)

12) Style

13) Humorous

14) Fun to be with

15) Hard Worker

The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see, and knows what the mind cannot understand.
~Robert Valett